I Am

I am impenetrable. I am building walls and then breaking them down only to build them up bigger. Stronger.

I am water tight. No tears escape my muddy eyes except on on anniversaries of days purposefully forgotten.

I am a steady hand. Or maybe I'm only steady when other people are watching.

I'm indecisive. No maybe I'm not.

Music I Am Diggin' On

This week I am going to keep my post short, sweet, and to the point. Throughout this week I found some songs that could be deemed as, "hella dope." Here is my comprehensive list.

1. Outlaws- Alessia Cara

This song is a banger. That's really all there is to it. Alessia is releasing her album November 13 and I could not be more excited. At the ripe age of 19 she is killing the music game. Her music is relatable, fun and the beats are amazing. Listen up.



2. Hello- Adele

Adele released her new single this week and the world exploded. Okay the world didn't literally explode but the internet sure as h*ck did. After almost five years of radio silence, Adele hopped back into the music scene in a way only she could. With a BANGIN' ballad. I was crying within seven seconds. Let's see how long you last. By the way. This song has been out for four days and it already has 67 million views online. Adele is queen.



3. Safety Dance- Sleeping At Last

The last song that rocked my world this week is a cover. If you haven't ever heard "Safety Dance" you are missing out. It is an 80's anthem. This week I saw that one of my favorite indie bands had done a fantastic cover that blew my mind. I don't want to give too much away though, so just listen.

Doing Dem Good Deeds

In class on Wednesday we were challenged to, "Buy a Coke" for a stranger and then write about it for our blog.

I decided to instead go to McDonald's and buy a whole bunch of items off of the dollar menu. Last Friday was payday and I was feeling like the big man on campus, Mr. Moneybags.

I was going all out. I received some pretty confused looks as I walked out of the store with eight McDoubles and a ton of other things but I was determined.

This weekend I was at home in Bountiful which was beneficial because I know where all of the homeless people tend to stay when it gets colder. I have driven past them hundreds of times.

Usually I try to give them a dollar or some spare change that was in my car but this time I knew I would do so much better. I drove there, hopped out of my car, and distributed the food. The looks on the people's faces were priceless.

At first many of them were confused, but after a few seconds they realized what I was doing and were very grateful.

One man did complain that he didn't want pickles but he took the food anyway. The best reaction that I received came from a woman that I had seen a few times.

She had tears in her eyes and seemed to be eternally grateful for the food that I had given her.

I am pretty sure the feeling I got after giving them the food was the same feeling, if not better, as winning the Super Bowl and marrying Chris Pratt the very next day.

Needless to say, an amazing feeling. Even though I can't serve like this all the time, I'm pretty sure I pulled a major Grinch. My heart grew like 11 sizes.

The growth was rad, except now all my favorite sweaters don't fit.

How Does the Other Half Live?

Yesterday I went grocery shopping. As a college junior it was not my first time grocery shopping, nor will it be the last. The one thing that was unique about yesterday was the price. It was $98.

Let me back up a bit. I literally been living off of granola bars and old cans of chili for the last two weeks due to the fact that I am: 

(A) Poor

(B) Lazy

(C) Terrified to leave the lot by my apartment out of fear of losing my precious parking spot

Because of this I waited far too long and had to buy way more food than normal. But that is not what this post is about.

I wanted to focus this post on the fact that I can barely afford to buy food even though I am working as much as humanly possible.

I work 20 hours a week and attend school full time. I can barely make ends meet. My question is how do others who do not have jobs that pay as well as mine, and tuition that is next to nothing survive?

How do the kids who have hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt make ends meet? How do they function?

I know that people often roll their eyes when they hear politicians talk about how student loans should be easier to come by and that when they do come they should be offered at a far lower rate.

My dad always says, "I paid for my own school, why can't everyone else?" 

I get it. It's a valid question. But I guess I just think, "so what?" Just because you are or you were better off than someone does that mean that you get to write them off entirely without helping them?

I'm honestly not saying this for me. I'll be fine, I like beans, so living off them every couple of weeks isn't too bad.

But isn't it about time we decide to help others just because we can? I could be wrong though. I don't know. Think about it.